I have all of these thoughts just floating around in my head…floating over and over and over again becuase I can’t ever seem to find the time to log on here and type them out. That’s why I started this blog in the first place, so that I could express myself as I wanted and then feel better mentally that I had gotten things off my chest – or at least that was the idea. I’ll tell you in once sentence what keeps me from blabbering on a regular basis…..
I have a child.
There, that’s it. I still have both hands and both arms and I can still see the screen and type – but that’s where my time has gone. Every time I get a free moment, my brain is crowded with thoughts of things that I should be doing – things other than taking a moment to type the stress away – laundry, dishes, cleaning, cooking…..etc.
My life has changed in so many ways. Mostly for the better. I’m not sure that the path I was on before was a good one. It’s hard, or should I say it’s harder than the life I had before I had a long term relationship and a child. Being a mother is HARD. To me, there is nothing harder in life than raising a child. But I guess I need to keep telling myself that mothers have been doing it for a long, long, time (my mother did it!) so I am sure that I can get through it too.
My question today is, how do you know if you’re saved? I’m speaking on religion, which maybe is too much of an opinionated topic, but I can’t seem to get it off my mind. Although, in this moment, right now, I think I have just answered my own question. I mean, if I have to ask it then I must not be saved, right?? Is that how that works? My first introduction to religion was Quakerism. And for many years thereafter that was the only religion that I knew. Only recently have I been visiting other religions to see what else is out there.
That’s all for now…. there is sooooo much more that I need to say, but I dont’ want to blow the laptop up. I am going to make it my mission to try and log on at least once a week, if not more to express myself… becuase I think it’s sooo important to BE YOURSELF.