Where has the time gone? :-/

I have all of these thoughts just floating around in my head…floating over and over and over again becuase I can’t ever seem to find the time to log on here and type them out.  That’s why I started this blog in the first place, so that I could express myself as I wanted and then feel better mentally that I had gotten things off my chest – or at least that was the idea.  I’ll tell you in once sentence what keeps me from blabbering on a regular basis…..

I have a child.

There, that’s it.  I still have both hands and both arms and I can still see the screen and type – but that’s where my time has gone.  Every time I get a free moment, my brain is crowded with thoughts of things that I should be doing – things other than taking a moment to type the stress away – laundry, dishes, cleaning, cooking…..etc. 

My life has changed in so many ways.  Mostly for the better.  I’m not sure that the path I was on before was a good one.  It’s hard, or should I say it’s harder than the life I had before I had a long term relationship and a child.  Being a mother is HARD.  To me, there is nothing harder in life than raising a child.  But I guess I need to keep telling myself that mothers have been doing it for a long, long, time (my mother did it!) so I am sure that I can get through it too.

My question today is, how do you know if you’re saved?  I’m speaking on religion, which maybe is too much of an opinionated topic, but I can’t seem to get it off my mind.  Although, in this moment, right now, I think I have just answered my own question.  I mean, if I have to ask it then I must not be saved, right??  Is that how that works?  My first introduction to religion was Quakerism.   And for many years thereafter that was the only religion that I knew.  Only recently have I been visiting other religions to see what else is out there. 

That’s all for now…. there is sooooo much more that I need to say, but I dont’ want to blow the laptop up.  I am going to make it my mission to try and log on at least once a week, if not more to express myself… becuase I think it’s sooo important to BE YOURSELF.


About Amy

Hello! I am 33 years old, a wife (just recently in 2012) and a mother (that came first in 2009). I used to be fairly laid back, but having a kid really upped my sensitivty which was heightened already. I really believe in saying how I feel, when I feel it. I express my feelings - alot - maybe too much...but I feel that it lets everyone know where I stand so that there is no confusion. And, I would like the same in return - but... good luck with that!
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